Evolution. In the past, i saw that word as a scientific description of change, but over the past few months, it is the only word I can use to describe what has been happening to me. I took a step back from all of the stories I told myself, I limited my interaction certain people, and minimised my time on social media etc. What I discovered has been amazing. I feel brand new, and I really wanted to share it with you.
I chose to do those things in order to spend some time with myself and a few forward thinkers I know. I then intentionally left my comfort zone, over and over again. At least once a week, I did something I had never done before, some of these things were small, like eating something i’d never eaten before, some huge, like going on holiday without my children. These experiences strengthened me, they taught me things about myself. These experiences led me to wonder about who I was, and if it was ok to change the decisions I had made about myself thus far.
My conclusion is that we do ourselves a huge disservice by deciding who we are one day and trying to stick with it forever, I believe that this stunts our growth as humans. Surely, just like everything else on this planet, our circumstances, experiences and interactions should bring about some sort of change within us.
I don’t think this is new information I’m exposing about myself, I think I was just unwilling to admit that I was unhappy being static, and having things all planned out. I’m a rolling stone, I change with the tide, I go with the flow, and that’s absolutely who I am supposed to be. Now I’m aware that not everyone can be as nomadic in nature as I am, but I think you should be open to becoming renewed. We are not meant to stay the same. Adulthood needn’t be the end of growth and self-discovery.
We should absolve ourselves of the guilt we associate with our own evolution. I am not who I was this time last year, and I don’t intend to be who I am today, a year from now. I give myself permission to be changed by the occurences in my life. If something feels good, I will accept it, if it doesn’t I will not.
What I know about myself, is that I enjoy being happy. I am a thrill seeker…even the little things give me pleasure…an awkward look, a baby’s laugh, a funny joke or a declaration of love. These are the type of things I will consciously place myself around, and I will seek out everything capable of bringing about some sort of evolution within me, because I’ve realised evolution is key. Evolution is necessary. Evolution is fulfilling and simply wonderful. If you do one thing today, let it be allowing yourself to become everything you are meant to be…Let the evolution occur. Evolve.